Tear Jerker

Hiatus`

2007-08-02T05:15:00.000+08:00

please refer to the above.

2 more years

too close`

2007-07-05T15:06:00.000+08:00

I feel in love again.

Tommorow is when i rekindle it.

oh my you look so different, like you used to look so much better last time`

2007-06-27T04:18:00.000+08:00

eh thanks ah.

Im getting worried about something.

Probably its just me, but am i just getting older each day? (DUH?)

damn, first things first. I am such a bitch la. I am selling something i bought for $35 for $45, don't they all say that banking students are assholes. Well i am one of them, its my way, if you don't like it, its the highway for you biatch.

Secondly, i am getting more talkative as each day passes, dude... i like spent 5 hours with a"not so close" friend of mine rattling and rattling, ranting and ranting non stop. Age really kills you ah, mannn, i don 't wanna become those kinda of lao ah pek sitting at coffee shop drinking guniness and talking about old time heroics.

Bottomline

I AM GETTING OLD

And damn me if you think i look old. damn you too... period

BTW, i still think i quite hot la. Please, if you wanna puke, do it elsewhere. Thanks, this post was meant to make me feel better.

empty`

2007-06-12T20:08:00.000+08:00

i promised myself, that, it would have never happen.
I broke that promise and this time, i bite myself rekindling the those exact words.
I wish i could go back to that exact moment and told myself "just go home"
The devil came upon me and i glanced into the darkness.
The sun setted, the cats turned black and I broke the promise.
This time, no matter how much i have been forgiven.
I can never forgive myself.

fine again

2007-05-27T03:46:00.000+08:00

in vino veritas`

2007-05-09T03:01:00.000+08:00

Cheers bitches.

feeling`

2007-05-04T14:34:00.001+08:00

thats how it feels balls.

exactly how i feel.

Martha`

2007-04-18T02:46:00.000+08:00

Its her name,

Martha

To a long journey together.

i will burn u alive`

2007-03-22T21:08:00.000+08:00

If you guys know we well enough. Which only some of u would, u would know at the very least before DECISIONS about me, i should be given the basic respect of being informed?

Whats the point of not having me know it when sooner or later i would find out about it?

At the very least if you had told me, i am quite certain that i would accept it and take it without regrets or complains.

BUT NO, not a fucking word from you, you and you.

If its gonna be this way, then let it be, i will have no associations with you guys any longer. I will come, but dun expect me to give you a nice looking friendly smile.

You, you and you make me sick.

Its now, we USED to be friends.

She too, USED to be pretty.

my day sucks`

2007-03-20T18:39:00.000+08:00

i didn't get my old class.

i quarreled with her.

She walked out.

what more does god want from me?

I AM THRU WITH IT.

I am Leaving town.

its new and emo`

2007-03-01T23:03:00.000+08:00

she falls to the ground, do you feel like a man`

2007-02-26T21:50:00.000+08:00

i Finally found the time to actually do this shit agian. Fuck man must have been ages since like i updated my blog. So heres my life laid out to you once agian.

1) I am litterally working 7 days a week Attachment + Moto

2) I think i am gonna fail my Financial Planning Module

3) I think i am getting ridiculously fatter and fatter each day

4) I passed with my right leg down, only racers would know the meaning of this, for the rest, go figure.

5) My Ipod is being neglected by me.

I am crapping again. I dun know why, maybe its all this work that is killing me. Maybe, just maybe.

You spin me right round baby right round. Oh no, i am going mad, yes you spin me round yes YOU.

There was no one, no one at all.

plank` wink` fall` omg`

2007-01-31T23:29:00.000+08:00

Looks like it gonna be 8 weeks of waking up at 7am in the morning just togo there. OMG, it just like hit me that its like damn far from my house. Oh man. I need my runner.

Wonder if my boss will be like a damn happening one and invites us to go drinking with him like after work and tells us that we do not have to come to work the next morning if we are having a hang over. Pfff... FAT HOPE.

2007-01-12T00:53:00.000+08:00

On the street it starts to pour and before i get soaking wet,

A total stranger runs to give me the jacket off his back

I turn around to thank her

But she waves me with a smile

I can hardly believe my eyes,

She puts on a halo and starts to fly

It happens, and i thank whoever it was =)

holiday mode`

2006-12-14T16:09:00.000+08:00

oh man, Patong looks damn good, Bintan looks attractive, Radang seems good and I NEED A BLOODY BREAK.

It really sucks to know that your 2 months holidays are like coming soon and u are like stuck because of attach attachment.

Thats why this 2 weeks i am gonna go like Germany of France or some european country. If all else fails. Bintan then.

put on your dancing shoes

2006-12-04T03:04:00.000+08:00

This Depicts my hate for you.

The belt buckle that i know too well.

That breath, oh so familar; 1985 John Miller,

A loud cry, no... its only me.

Cramping in that corner;what an grotesque sight,

what might have been of me i would not have realised,

those eyes;these eyes

i never scrutunized deep enough to understand

Those Hands, Large and rough,

devoured my soul, stole my million future Dollars.

That chain, not only a bicycle retainer,

drips blood of mercy and tears of pain.

This Depicts My Hate for you.

Silent calling of the rose

2006-11-17T01:12:00.000+08:00

SILENT CALLING OF THE ROSE

Deranged hair and a messed up throat.
Sweeping rains from the heavenly skies.
It was dark i once remembered.
The torment that lead to outburst of cries,
only amplified the aura of hurt.

A wife looking on from a distance,
sipping tea in on the deepest garden.
Its may seem that she was oblivious,
but in fact it was only a disguise.

Walking on the dead man's land,
i can't help but to notice in close,
an ironic yet wonderful sight of a rubber band
tied to the side of that stone; A beautiful Rose

Elated, yet stoned as i stared stunned.
The floor pounded my knees down,
leading me to form the shape of a pious son,
left me there to question the possibility of seeing elegance just before you frown.

once agian

2006-10-23T04:19:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday my Baby Girl.

I have seen u grown for 6 years.

From a ah lian to a hippie to a Woman now.

Although we are still not back together.

I still would like to say that you are always on my mind and in my heart.

Thanks for the memories u have gave me and the happy times.

See you later baby.

smashed`

2006-10-15T14:36:00.000+08:00

1 Bottle Vodka
1 Bottle Chivas

4 Flaming Lambos

1 Graveyard

2 Jugs Bourbon Coke

2 Jugs Vodka Ribena

2 Jugs Beer

Many many Housepours

WASTED

Happy birthday to me.

And Thanks guys.

hmmm`

2006-10-07T18:23:00.000+08:00

It just doesnt feel right.

The Epidemy of Uncorked Destitute of Sympathy.

I just can't comprehend why.

just like a bimbo`

2006-09-29T13:04:00.000+08:00

I would like to make some changes.
I will NOT be Em-ceeing at the cybershot T10 show anymore, instead i will be doing a CLEO roadshow at raffles city.
Some last minute changes. So do come down and show me ur support.

Venue : Raffles City
Time : 11pm - 8pm
Date : 30th Sept and 1st Oct

spin that shit`

2006-09-21T00:27:00.000+08:00

I will be Emcee-ing a Sprite roadshow this saturday.
Come down and support as they will also be giving out free Sprite.

Venue : Scotts
Time : 12pm - 7pm
Date : 23rd Sep

Please Come down as I will be spinning some Top 40s and Trance, it will be enjoyable.

Please come down for the Cybershot T10 Roadshow as well.
We will be playing games and giving out fantastic prizes and spinning your favourite tunes.

Venue: Cineleisure
Time: 11pm - 8pm
Date: 31st sep ( CORRECTION, THANKS TO A CALENDER GENIUS, the world simply cannot exist without people like you.)
1st Oct.

Do come down and give me ur support.

Thanks everyone!

its been great.

2006-09-19T00:25:00.000+08:00

have no more inspirations to write now more.
I will roadblock this blog for a while.
Thanks for reading all this time.

I have a upcoming show at Cineleisure on 31st for the Song Cybershot T10.
Hope you guys can come down and look see if you are free.

Thanks agian.

i won't change my mind`

2006-09-06T03:49:00.000+08:00

I am doing it and nothing will stop me.
And its gonna be good.

listen to the drums`

2006-08-27T14:53:00.000+08:00

Cosmic gate was freaking Awesome man

Crowd going wild.

Us going wild.

According to some guy who calls them cosmic man.

They crowd stayed till around 530 and begged him for more.

We left like at 330?

But it was great still.

and it would be...`

2006-08-27T05:02:00.000+08:00

SKT !!!!

Predictions for the up coming matches.

ECD - C-
FMGT - D-
FMS - C+
IEF - D-
AAA - A+

Buy over for every match.
Sure win handicap one.

3 things i love about you`

2006-08-22T14:19:00.000+08:00

1. No matter what your friends said about me, you still carried on. Look, all your friends are like my damn good friends now?

2. You dared to show that you liked me. And that is what i loved so much and never made me stop loving you.

3. Having so many things happen, you still stuck there with me instead of running to someone else.
Although we are not back together, and we may not get back, i dun know, i just wanna tell you that i appreciate everything that you have done for me.
Although u make too much noise in the car.

We should thank the nails, because it sorta got us together for 5 years plus.

understatement`

2006-08-21T18:28:00.000+08:00

Love It when someone shows the world that they do actually have feelings for you.
I Love It when someone shows the world that they care for you.
I Love It when someone shows the world that they Love you.
I Love It when you Show it.

Thank You.

fail la`

2006-08-21T02:24:00.000+08:00

In the midst of exams.
Mr Vincent Koh Had to turn 20.
Headed down to Liquid with e guys and gals.
Daireus, Yiguaug "Homie" Paul, Vincent + Eve, Liyang + Candice, Yan Qi, Alex, J ong, Yan Qi and Hazel.
Bumped into Leon, Donovan, Matthew and Regina.
Crowed, Hitted on by Ah lians, Crazy Indian gays, Bad music + High.
And amidst the irony, getting a F for FMGT.
IPOD Faster get delivered Please?

It was Sweet of ya. Thank you =)

I changed my mind`

2006-08-17T10:58:00.000+08:00

It just blew past me.

Just like that.
Delirious thoughts, numbing effect.

and i don't know why part 2`

2006-08-14T15:57:00.000+08:00

Immature Bitch

Feels horrible.

To see you acting so Fucking imature, you think i care, if you are with him to make me feel the prick, i don't think it worked. =)

yeah, i knew him`

2006-08-06T13:04:00.000+08:00

It amazes me how 2 individuals distant by time and tested by faith could fall in love.
Sometimes, i just cannot comprehend the peircing fact that another 2 individuals had everything going for them and it just couldnt happen.

To persist; might kill you.
To wait; love will find you.

I wish the letters just keep coming

not needed`

2006-07-31T02:08:00.000+08:00

it was not needed
for it turn out this way.

smashed`

2006-07-27T15:14:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday Nestie!

Mambo was fun, kinda Squeezy.
Saw MANY old friends omg.

Jon you owe me a beer.

i wouldnt blame you`

2006-07-26T14:16:00.000+08:00

U always leave me confused.

Do you want it, or do you not?

It sucks to see you sad. It really does.

It sad to see things like that being pen out.

Momentary`

2006-07-19T00:24:00.000+08:00

Like a back injury, it never goes away.
It was just a can of EC. It eases the pain for awhile.
After its finished, it will be hollow and cannot be replenished.

I am not ready to see a doctor agian.

It might help if u only understood

I wish u only did.

emptiness`

2006-07-14T02:37:00.000+08:00

It could have just ended like that. Leaving me dumb folded.

not crying.

2006-07-11T16:02:00.000+08:00

Even if we dun make it thru.

one man columbine`

2006-07-07T02:00:00.000+08:00

Her : Hi sir would u like a value pack with 1000 bullets at 79.99?
Him : No thanks, just 1 will do.

I really had no where to run`

2006-07-06T00:19:00.000+08:00

Quote`

2006-07-04T16:22:00.000+08:00

Quote you are my soul unquote
Now does that sound familar?
You kissed the boy and make him feel this way

Quote well this is me unquote
And You have been so ugly you're entire life
So I changed now

Is this how you wanna go down, right before my eyes
You're the saddest sight i know
You're quiet you never make a sound
But here inside my mind you are the loudest one I know

Quote we never talk unquote
And thats when I don't answer
Don't you dare ask why
Because you don't want to know,

Quote Well whoa is me unquote
How different I've become
And no one understands, my dear, no one really cares

Is this how you wanna go down
Right before my eyes, you are the saddest sight, I know
And you're quiet you never make a sound, but here inside my mind you are the loudest one I know.

And you were right, right from the start
It took everything you had, but you finally broke my heart.

And know the old flames will pass away
I saw your life once
Did you see mine
But not all things will pass away
You turned your light off
So I turned mine, away from your saddness, away from the nothingness you feel for me.

Is this how you wanna go down
Right before my eyes, you are the saddest sight, I know
You're so quiet and you never make a sound
But here inside my mind you are the loudest one, I know
And you were right, right from the start, it took everything you had, but you finally broke my thoughts.

Quote, hey listen cause ill only say this once
I finally found the words
That mean enough to me
Good bye my soul, unquote.

cheers`

2006-07-04T02:20:00.000+08:00

I avoided them for u.
I irritated them because of u.
I cannot be bothered with them for you.
I told them i cannot be friends with them cos i have you.
Fuck.
Now everyone fucking thinks that i have an ego issue, head problem and no one is accepting me for the way i fucking am.
Fuck la, thanks.
Never should have change wad i used to be.

enjoyment

2006-07-01T17:09:00.000+08:00

i enjoyed myself.

Happy birthday 20 year old.
We never expected this day.

Jason Is listening to Kobayashi - Strange Lights and Resolutions.

Clouds come crashing

2006-06-28T02:14:00.000+08:00

4 months,17 days and decreasing.

Been trashing my brain out with unimportant stuffs.
Things are getting so nostalgic.
Its probably that no good pizza i had this morning.
Maybe its that strawberry flavoured fag that spoilt my day.
Could be the FMGT project that i rushed today.
Can it be that SMS i received just now?
It may be Mid-life Crisis.

Dude, let go of it, your getting OLD.

And thanks to getting OLD, people normally withhold from doing some things that could possibly make them lead happier lifes.

I can never be as happy as the guy in the magazine.

last chapter-

2006-06-16T13:21:00.000+08:00

2 days seem like really short time considering that i am back here in my house agian blogging. How lame.
Went away to an island resort with some close friends to clear my mind. If u have been to Nagoya, i think u will be very glad to be singaporean. I would never dare to drive there, no night lights. So many fucking bikers on their stupid "Cap Chais" i would probabally kill like 10 bikers if i drove there, and they have this very bad habit of using their horn impulsivelly. Anyway, the place was not bad, too sleazy though and dirty with everyone trying to cheat your moning like paying $4 fucking dollars for rice and chicken, like please.....
The only place that we went to and was respectable was this place called Kelong Villiage. Food was great and was damn cheap 4 persons for only $33 with beer. We had Sotong, Kang Kong and Hotplate Beancurd, i telll u it was marvelous. We had the taxi driver joined us too. We treated him to drinks and he took us around for the whole night for RP$150,000. Thats not bad. Well too bad my mind is not cleared. Wad i need is to back away from everything. I mean EVERYTHING, but that seems like such a difficult feat. I was hoping, this trip could have cleared my mind off some things. But ended up thinking of it even more.
Omg, i am soo screwed. so so soooo screwed.

Cheers to a more pleasent life with fucked up endings.

I never left a space for u in my heart, but at some point of time. You became my heart.

2006-06-12T00:44:00.000+08:00

one too many times. one too many times.

never gonna happen`

2006-06-08T17:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRD-DAY TATTY!!!!

I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue and I stumbled out of bed and dragged my feet across the roomRight outside my front door was a rose and a note that said 'Somebody Loves You'

But out on the street it starts to pourand before I get soaking wet,

A total stranger runs to give methe jacket off his back I turn around to thank himBut he waves me with a smileI can hardly believe my eyes

He puts on a halo and starts to flyTake a lok at the ordinaryDon't need to look at Paradise

You could be next toan angel in disguiseI met a good friend for lunchand we had a delicious meal

But I forgot to bring my walletI felt like an imbecile

But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and Bought me a chicken sandwich To take home for tea

But out on the street with nothing to eatA man and his shopping cart

Travelling to placesCollecting social gracesI give him my sandwichand we chatter for a while

I see a rainbow wash over his eyesHe gives me his halo andI start to fly Take a look at the ordinary

Don't need to look for Paradise You could be next to an angel in disguise

Don't try to hide away from me I know you're by my side

Take a look at the ordinary Don't need to look at ParadiseYou could be next toan angel in disguise

Everyday can be legendary Every minute, an endless surpriseYou could be the next angel in disguise

I woke up this morning Feeling kind of new.

Accidentally in love`

2006-05-31T01:29:00.000+08:00

i say burn the brigdes and break the barricades.
i am smashing thru. the sign of denial and starvation.
it going to be over soon, just a little bit more.
ur the best mistake that i will ever make.
i will be the sweetest nightmare that u ever had.
start putting signs on the roads and everyone will stop on obey.
stop initiating and only you will not understand.
you stole it away, the pain, the hurt and the savage within me.
i plead to burn within me once more.

Cold, but i am still here.
Time, indeed has killed us.

jie kou`

2006-05-28T03:42:00.000+08:00

翻著我們的照片想念若隱若現
去年的冬天我們笑得很甜
看著妳哭泣的臉, 對著我說再見
來不及聽見　妳已走得很遠
也許妳已經放棄我　也許已經很難回頭
我知道是自己錯過　請再給我一個理由說妳不愛我
就算是我不懂　能不能原諒我
請不要把分手當作妳的請求
我知道堅持要走是妳受傷的藉口
請妳回頭　我會陪妳一直走到最後
就算沒有結果　我也能夠承受
我知道妳的痛　是我給的承諾
妳說給過我縱容　沉默是因為包容
如果要走　請妳記得我　如果難過　請妳忘了我

All i wanted was time, u took it away.

love

2006-05-28T03:30:00.000+08:00

nothing seems to be going the way i wanted it to be.
Tought things over, tought it thru, set my mind to it, and there u go shooting it down.
take me as a overly ego-ed person, take me as who u think i am.
i wasnt ever the person that meant for anything ti happen.
you told me u were not strong enuff, u told me that u never had so much fun.
here i am giving u the oppotuinity and there u go biting the words that i say and turning them back agianst me?
what can i say, i am just a small guy in this big world that has no single clue about the word that ppl use to discribe companianship.
oh yeah, it will not exist in my world anymore if things go very wrong. very very wrong.

forgetting you is not easy, neither is forgeting the times we spent together. but if someone new turns up and spoils the party then wad can i say please take it and i will run away.

my fo fo fo fo fo`

2006-04-26T00:03:00.000+08:00

Long time since i blogged.
I have no idea wad is going on in school la.
I have not attended a single lecture so far, and my head is far far away from school.
There goes once again for studying hard.
I never thought that i was cut out for studying.
Firstly, i never imagined myself coming to poly and taking a Diploma.
Secondly, i never thought that i would want to go to a local Uni and pursue my Degree.
Thirdly, i never thought that i would go pass my first year.
Honestly to you people that do not know me well, i am not that type of person which would relac one corner and then score str8 As, its all pure hard work la.
Simply to put it, i am dilligent not intelligent, not where near that in fact.
Enough said, lets put down some resolutions for the new Term.

1) Do all tutorials
2) Attend all IMPORTANT lectures
3) Club Less
4) Attend more training sessions
5) Go to the Gym Twice a Week
6) Go for a Campus run Once a Week
7) Treat her better
8) Strike 4D =)

Lets hope this term will be a better term.
One more thing to add

9) Drive CAREFULLY

Make a resolution, break a promise.

HAHAHAHAHAHAH

2006-04-15T13:13:00.000+08:00

To ALL u who put me in agony for my driving test that i will fail... You all are WRONG!

I PASSED BIATCH!

With all my might

2006-04-15T02:45:00.000+08:00

Passing my driving test tommorow will mean alot to me.

1. No need to spend more money on driving lessons.
2. Dun have to face Mr.Tan ( Instructor) Anymore.
3. Midnight supper at changi is possible.
4. I can take a spinnn when i am bored.
5. School will be a stone's throw away
6. My friends living around me will never be late for school anymore.
7. I will attend more tranings at Toa Payoh and Barker
8.I will be a VERY VERY HAPPY man.

I hope someone out there is listening to me, u know the true reason why i wanna pass it this time, its my 3rd try and i really hope that it will be the last attempt to get this.
PLEASE, PLEASE Let me pass. PLEASE!!!!

I really won't speed or drive recklessly if i get it. I am serious, i won't.

Confessions of a very Emo mind (Version 1.2)

2006-04-10T01:19:00.001+08:00

well, camp just ended for me and if i were to say that the freshies that i had were good it would be an understatement, they were the best i ever had, nothing came close to them. I like to thanks the CCs for making the camp sucha successful one and putting so much faith in me, thanks ya all. I must say that the camp has really put me in my place, firstly i learnt that its not the surbordinates that is at fault when work is not done properly, its the leaders and i hope everyone agrees and respects that point. There were many ups and downs, happy and sad times, slow and fast. I love my freshies and yes as i have said before, you guys are the best thing that happened to me in my life besides my GF of cause. So about the 5000 word essay, it wasnt my idea.

To all the Gls and my fellow Cgls, i love u guys as well, you guys made the camp great and i respect that and i hope that we all still stay in contact after this horrible time of putting the camp together. And one particular person i would like to thank is HuiLing, Thanks for clearing up my shit when i wasnt around, u have been a great friend and understanding one too, even after so much things that have happened, u still held ur head high and led like u should, i really holla at that and i really really wanna say thank you.

I would like to thank another person, thanks for being there for me when i was down. I think u know who u are, yes, its you. From listening to my rants to taking all that bullshit from me. I will never find another friend like you ever.

With that i will conclude my hence very nice post "Confessions of a very Emo mind (Version 1.2)" Thanks to Mark, this is not i repeat NOT Plagairism. And to Mark you have been a great friend to me as well thanks for all bro.

Living my life to the fullest means ending a life with unfilled emptiness. Thats my 2 cents worth

Personification of a ManWhore

2006-03-20T01:24:00.000+08:00

Rushed week i must say. Glad its all over, next time to long forward to is sports camp. And my TP which hopefully i will pass this time round. Anyway, happy birthday (Early one) to my dearest ZJ, you are 19 i hope u act that age, have fun waiting to turn 20. Anyway, working has taken a toll on my body, i notice me to be growing bigger eyebags. Training has made me a ApuNehneh. That aside. GL Camp just ended and it wasnt so bad. In fact it was great.

This is the picture of the 9 CGLs or at least 8 CGLs and 1 ex-CGL

Many sad things happen over the weekend.
Cant be bother to say them.
Or rather, can i say them?

Be personified as a Whore, a manwhore.

2006-02-25T23:52:00.000+08:00

CIP IS THE BEST SUBJECT EVER.

I have learnt to use Ppt, word, dreamweaver and flash very well.
It has helped me to enhance my lifestyle in web designing and efficency in use of typing out reports. It deeply amplified my effictiveness in competence in life.
Thank you Miss Swan!!!!

I Love You Madam!!!!

A little Reminder

2006-02-25T03:35:00.000+08:00

Remember this for life.

N.e.r.d

2006-02-21T03:36:00.000+08:00

@ Bukit Batok 24hr macs

@2am

@3am

@4am

@5am

@6am

Mugging kills you, STOP MUGGING u bloody NERDS.

Felt like it

2006-02-18T15:20:00.000+08:00

A new Phone, but still an old feeling.

Perhaps,

you could have taken it away?

should

you have cried aloud for me?

maybe

you were never there for me?

definately

I was crying aloud within me.

Where were you when things went awfully wrong for me?
You promised safe landings.
You promised undying love.
I gave you my heart.
I gave you my soul.
You were never there.
Help me once more.

Adios Amigos

2006-02-10T01:12:00.000+08:00

Was it wrong to expect too much from myself. I was 1/10th the player i used to be, i fought hard and acheived 7/10 agian. Was it not enough, was it not sufficient for the team. I feel useless, 10 goals from me, big deal, we still lost overall. We play well and fought hard, but i am very upset by the fact that we were 2 men down at the 2nd quater. It wasnt a full force match. I hate myself for letting this happen. I hate losing. I just hate it...

I believe one man can make a difference.

99 problems

2006-02-03T01:51:00.000+08:00

I have gotta run my mouth after like 2 months of non blogging. No ones gonna read this but i will still talk about how unsatisfied with life i am right now. Let me go thru it in point form. It all started with me

1 - Failing my Micro Test 1
Subsequently

2- Failed my TP its the 2nd try by the way.

3- Rushing CATS project which i think is like a redudant module.

4- Studying for Bstats test 2

5- Studying for CIP test, which i scored 40/50 for it so lets just ignore this point.

6- Studying for Micro RE-test which is tml, so good luck and have fun for me.

7- Cant seem to find the perfect phone for myself

8- Lack of cash

9- Lack of Cash

10- Lack of cash

11-99 Lack of cash

Tests suck, i meant it seriously.
And my classmates are giving me so much pressure, cos they are like smart?
Projects are putting me on the window ledge.
Ocom Table topics are around the corner.
The 7 things that i wanna pamper myself with, that i cabt seem to afford at the moment.

Zara Blazer - $499
Zara messenger Bag - $89
Crumpler Complete seed Black - $179
A and F Berms - $109
Kenneth Cole Dress shoes - $599
New pair of Havainas - Brasils Black- $27.90
G-Star Jean - $379

Yes, purchase one at a time u might be thinking.
But buying one item at a time is like buying parts of your computer one by one. It doesnt work that way. It just doesnt go. Maybe its just me.
I hope that i could pout my way thru things now, but me pouting aint exactly a very pleasent sight.
Waterpolo IVP falling on seriously the wrong time.
Things aint going really well with me and her at the moment. Working out some issue that hopefully is like a blessing in disguise for us.
Valentines day is apporaching. The gift, the venue!

I have 99 problems and bitching aint fly. So dun Bitch bout yours.

My creation. I know its nice.

2005-12-16T11:31:00.000+08:00

Down Under

2005-12-12T00:54:00.000+08:00

Hi all, long time no post man. Its my Ocom presentation tml and i am suffering a series of panic attacks, not to mention the headaches and muscle aches i am expericencing. Anyway, just got back from Perth. Loved to weather there, dry and hot, but humidity there is like damn low la. U get a sunburn without knowing it cos the wind there is so freaking cold. At night it was a staggering 12 degrees, what i would like to call a summer gone wrong. To make maters worse we arrived there at night, not knowing wad to expect of the weather there. Look at me and Jian wens happy and freezing expression.

We stayed at mailto:trinity@perth , i know, you must be thinking now Perth where got trinity, its in melboure. That was wad i initially thought as well, but wad i found out was that it was a RESIDENTIAL colleage, not like the one in melboure. Anyway, me and Jian Wen stayed in a room together. Not bad, a lil down on the furnishings though.

The next day was the opening of the games, the waterpolo matches were held at the challenge stadium, yes, the challege stadium, the one that hosts the waterpolo world cup. It was really an experience.

Nothing much really happened there, but we saw a really really really tall china guy that played Volleyball, we insisted that we had a shot with him.

Anyway, he really amazed me. We went shopping a few days later at perth city, i realised that every 4 shops i walk pass, it was 1 surf shop. Wad a freaky sight. I got to see the true blue, most authentic quiksilver boarders club there.

It was quite cool la. Nothing much really happened there except for waterpolo matches and late night clubbing and drinking. Beer is cheap there. 48 cans fer a whopping AUST$50. Thats almost $1 a can. I rather buy beer then get a can of coke there, $3.50 is the price of a bottle of coke, a bottle of beer cost $2.90. So which would u choose? Back to waterpolo matches, we were down to support the south africans in their match with UWA, i borrowed their wig and the VooVooZilla, a native horn, really loud.

They ended up winning 9-8. I wonder why. Days pass rather quickly and sooner then we knew, we had to depart back to home the next day. I took a picture with our very nice bus cordinater in my thanks to her for helping me get around... Yeah right, it was just because Darren was crazy about her and i just made it a point that i had balls, unlike him.

We took a team picture on the last day before we departed.

I have more pictures with darren and its the sights and sounds of perth, but dun think u guys will be very much interested, but i will post them up anyway when i get them. Till then saty tuned.

I post this pic because i think it looks nice =p

Anyway, thanks for viewing. Look back soon.

Quote of the day : Lifes a dick, when it gets hard, fuck it.

ZoukOut 2005, Annual Dance Music Festival Returns For Fifth Installation

2005-10-27T00:45:00.000+08:00

Singapore’s definitive and celebrated annual dance music festival ZoukOut continues its tradition of bringing Zouk’s spirit and energy to the great outdoors and an even wider audience as the internationally recognized festival enters its fifth season this year.

Five years after its very first mega music festival, ZoukOut returns once again to the newly upgraded Siloso Beach area; where it was first held in 2000. On December 10, 2005, for 12 hours from dusk till dawn (8pm – 8am);

ZoukOut will transform the resort landscape into a magical clubland with four stages featuring a broad spectrum of genres including house, tribal, progressive, techno, trance, electro, indie, hip hop and of course the very popular Mambo Jambo soundtrack. This year’s blockbuster line up features some of the biggest artists in the ever-growing field of electronic dance music today,

Including.

World Number No.3 DJ Armin Van Buuren; Way Out West’s Nick Warren; Techno Wizard Sven Väth; Tribal house heroes Chus & Ceballos; House legend Lil’ Louie Vega of Masters At Work; Chart topping hit-maker Martin Solveig; Peter Kruder of Kruder and Dorfmeister fame, Stephane Pompougnac of the best-selling Hotel Costes CD series and pioneer of Hip Hop turntablism Cash Money, with more names to be confirmed soon. In line with the healthy resurgence of alternative live music.

ZoukOut 2005 hosts a live stage featuring local favourites, the chart-topping Electrico and the new outfit, Slowjaxx Does Dallas made up of members from Stoned Revivals, Force Vomit and Moods.

In addition to the stellar lineup, there will also be a refreshing corner; brimming with rejuvenating massage, make up and other goodies to keep clubbers looking pristine at the coastline, plus side activity tents that will feature interactive action games and art installations. Cultural and language barriers aside.

ZoukOut is the dance festival that unites clubbers from all of Asia together under the common denominator of a feel-good, exuberant experience. It is this dynamism that has made ZoukOut the ‘MUST GO’ dance festival for music fans from all over the region.

***Details***

Event: ZoukOut 2005

Date: December 10, 2005

Venue: Sentosa, Siloso Beach

**SingaporeTicket Prices**

$38 for 1-10 Tix

$36 for 11-20 Tix

Prices are negotiable if purchases are over 21 Tix.

Note * $48 @ venue

For Tix purchase, Please contact

Jason @ 81330938

Hazel @ 90699989

Before 1st december

Minimum age of entry 18, photo ID required to gain entry.

Bird - day

2005-10-19T02:02:00.000+08:00

4 days ago. I finished training at ard 8+, me and the guys went fer dinner at bukit timah market. After the fufilling dinner, Hazel and I wondered off to town as the guys went home according to them. We went to plaza sing first as i wanted to watch a movie. Then Hazel suggested that we go take a drink at the orchard beer garden, i thought, why not? We sat there with me reminiscing about my last 5 mins of life as an 18 year old. As the clock struck 12, i was 19. I took my last mouth and wanted to leave. Suddenly, "HAPPY BIRTHDY TO YOU, etc etc...." I was shocked. It was the guys!! The surprised me with a cake and presents, a Zara Pants and a Zara Superman tee. Wow... It was lovely la. The cake looked something lydat.

We ordered drinks and sat fer a while to chit chat here and there. After that we wanted to go off to dota somewhere. So we took pics first. Heres one with every one in it.

Heres one with the barker guys a.k.a Punggol 107

heres the other with the Waterpolo guys and our very pretty ball pickers =x

Well that day was great. And Hazels Birthday is coming up soon! Oh please tell me wad i should buy or do for her. I am totally clueless!

Anyway, the next day, the guys and I went fer steamboat at marina. It was great, free flow crabs, beef, prawns and chicken. Its like so close to heaven la. We started eating at around 630 and ended at ard 9 i think. Thats 2 and a half hours of pure pleasure. After that we took a train to City Hall to make our way to suntec fer Deuce Bigalow : European Gigolo. This was the pic with us on the train. Randall, Joyce, Darren and Paxton Faces were blocked. Too bad =p

The movie started at 1115pm, we had loads of time and played wih the cam. This was the result of fcuking around.

Me acting slutry

Back to the movie.

Back to serious business, the movie was alrite, not fantastic. It was rather overated by critics. Fer me the humour was just right, but nothing too funny till the stage where by " My cheek muscles are aching" Nothing of that sort. Storyline was continuous, but the most dissapointing factor about the movie, its only 1hr 37 mins long. Everything happen too fast fer u to actually grasp wads going on. Fer me i will rate the movie 3/5 Cookies

Septuagenarian Stories

2005-10-14T02:26:00.000+08:00

Last few days fer me was like whoosh. I mean i couldnt see anything that was coming my way, was kinda happy yesterday though. For one, Kelvin, Randall and Darren bought me a pair of Havianas Trekkers for my birthday, i been longing fer that fer a very long time. Thanks to them, i am in higher sprits. Heres a picture of them Havianas. Chew ur tongues out homies.

I love Havianas la. My first pair got kinda stolen by Mr ACJC, Johnathan Wong. So there u go a new pair. Thanks, u arse holes. =x

On another note, me and Hazel poured our hearts out to each other yesterday. I feel more relaxed and more "free of burden" if u know wad i mean. Anyway, i went home yesterday and i noticed this this lady holding something really big near a stairway corner. I walked nearer and nearer, it almost freaked me out to see this....

Its damn scary all, it really looks like a girl holding this gigantic icecream all ready to devour it up in front of me. Yucks. Almost scared the living shit outta me.

Anyways, i was think of leaving a goatee fer me. Well i am in kinda of a dilema becoz there are so many types of goatees. So i decided to put my Paint skills to work and drafted out a few possibilities.

First pic is classic indian gansta look. Kinda cool and very manly at the same time, Groovy!

Second pic is the Craig David style, no moustache but full of attitude with the bottom goatz, Kinky!

Third pic is the DIY style, this happens when u do not know how to leave a goatee or shave, Shit happens!

Last pic is the everlasting italian style, a small triangle on the top of the bottom lip with nothing on the extreme top or bottom, Sexy!

Well thats all i have fer u todaes, pls tell me which one is more suited fer me. Not like i will be able to grow one but ya, suggestions are always welcomed. There u go, my nose's hairs worth.

*Quote*

"Once bitten twice shy" <---- WTF, ( Primary school shit )

Pissed

2005-10-12T02:05:00.000+08:00

Piss me off and this might happen.

Sun, sand and shit photos

2005-10-10T02:54:00.000+08:00

Here i go updating agian. Wow, its been long huh....
Anyway, done a few things these few days. Been, training, training, training and ......
Yeah!!! Sentosa!!!
Yes i actually found the time to go to sentosa. With a few Barker guys and the NAWP ppl.
Anyway. I jus relised that my passion fer waterpolo has rekindled with me. It was kinda leaving me fer someone else, and when i relised that it was happening, i confessed my love fer it, and then, it felt touched once agian and came back to my side. Back to the topic. Hazel decided to take a picture of me and it turned out like this

Bull-shit. Well, i did play a part in the actual photo la. I posed! Anyway, i was kinda amused how it turned out. Anyway, we had 3 activities going on fer us at sentosa; waterpolo, touch rugby and volley ball. When the sun is shining down directly at you at almost 40 degrees, trust me, it isnt easy to run or swim. We stayed there from ard 2 pm till around the late evening when we decided to call it a day. We ask a very cute old japanese couple to help us with taking some pics as a group. First, i ask her and gave her the cam, then Mark came and gave her another one, then Thomas came and stuffed her with another cam, she was more or less a good sport though, no complains just smiles. The photo turned out lydat.

We then packed up and left the place. We bathe, changed and left sentosa fer habour front shopping centre. We ate this superb dish call "Hot and spicy seafood mini steam boat"
I bought it first, after everyone smelling and glancing at it, they all decided that it was the dish of the day as well. Too bad i do not have pic of it. But this is a rough sketch of it la
Man it wad delicious la. After this we went home loh.
Kinda anti-climax ending huh.

*Quote*
*Those who speak of imbeciles, speaks millions about their incompetence"

Jealousy

2005-10-06T03:54:00.000+08:00

How to conquer Jealousy, a step by step guide. A friend recently talked to me about this.
I find that jealousy exist in all living souls, be it little or much. So this might help u along the way if u ever jealousy gets in the way of the progression of ur life. Hope i helps!

Seperate the facts and the stories!!!!! In "emergency" or intense situations, what we recommend to our coaching clients (and to you) is that you consciously breathe deeply and simply allow those feelings to be there without acting on them. This sounds counter-intuitive but it does really work! You might think that if you focused on the feelings that they will intensify, but if you are "breathing into" those feelings, the exact opposite happens. "Whether you believe that you can do something or not, you're right." WHAT IS JEALOUSY?Jealousy is a whole bundle of feelings that tend to get lumped together. Jealousy can manifest as depression, feeling powerless, loneliness,envy,anger,feeling left out, hurt, anxiety, betrayal. It is crucial to understand what jealousy is and what it is about. Jealousy is about fear--fear of the unknown and of change, fear of losing power or control in a relationship, fear of scarcity and of loss, and fear of abandonment. It is a reflection of our own insecurity about our worthiness, anxiety about being adequate as a lover, and doubts about our desirability.how to deal?Either he is the one for you or he isn't. There will always be someone more attractive but do they have substance? If he really wants you -- he won't make you jealous. When you communicate together openingly you should address this issue --why he wants to make you jealous and perhaps he can assure you there is nothing to fear. Jealousy is a self-defeating emotion that can drive away the love we crave. Realize you are the one over-reacting.jealousy for those who can not control it eats away at the core of the relationship in the one thing that holds it together -- trust.Realize he chose you for your uniqueness. Your every bit as good if not better than those other girls. Remember that trust is the foundation of any relationship, and you shouldn't let your insecurities destroy yours.Stop and think what triggers the jealousy exactly? Also keep in mind jealousy can be a pattern from when you were younger. Be gentle, easy on yourself and discuss the situations when they trigger calmly with your partner.. If your partner doesn't think they are important, discuss the situation with friends for a reality check, join a group and get their viewsSTEPSHave self-confidenceThinking PositiveExercise The Way you Dress -- i.e. you feel and look greatGive and Receive (treat others as you expect to be treated) even if you get nothing back. Give what you want. If you want more cooperation and respect, give respect and cooperate. If you want to succeed, help others succeed. If you want more joy, be more joyful. And be open to giving to yourself. Honor your own worthiness to receive or no one else will. When we circulate our positive energy, we create more and more to enjoy. Giving is good as long as you do not let others take advantage of you.Surround yourself with good people.Set goals and meet them.Managing your jealousy begins with the acknowledgement that you are jealous. Repression or denial may only make things worse. Stop debating whether the feeling is good or bad. Accept it as your emotional reality and go from there. Accept that your feelings of insecurity will not go away overnight. They are something you are going to have to work on. Look at them rather like you would look at an .... addiction to cigarettes - you have to work at stopping.Try to be your unique self. Don't compare yourself to others.We all need to boost our self-confidence in different ways and for different reasons. The trick is to find out where you need to improve and then go out and do just that. When you have faith in yourself, life makes more and more sense, and seems increasingly like something you can tackle. Most of all self-confidence takes time.

*QUOTE*
Trust betrays you 1 too many times.

New Blog

2005-10-04T04:14:00.000+08:00

As you all have noticed. I have decided to go back to Square 1 and start from the beginning.
A new blog, new words, new stories and best of all, new bitchings.
Although this is a simple blog. Please do support often and better yet, spread it to your friends and excite them how marvellous this blog is.
Well i thank u guys fer supporting me thus far and i hope that u would continue to do so.
Thanks a million.

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* Murder, theft, robbery, cheating etc... All in a days job *